5 Reasons Why Smart, Successful (and Sincere) Christian Men Watch Porn


There I was. At a $10,000 a week Addiction Recovery Center in Phoenix. 

I was sitting apprehensively in our first “group work” session and we were going around the circle telling total strangers about the darkest demons lurking in our souls. There was some pretty crazy stuff being shared in that first gathering. And the thing was, these all looked like highly successful men. Not one had those blank empty “serial killer” eyes. 

Getting to know all these men really well over the next week, I found out a few things. 

One was an owner of a massive million dollar company. Another was the manager of one of the biggest pop stars in America. Still another was a super successful book publisher. 

And they were all very sincere Christians. And all very addicted to porn and sexual vice. 

And I was no different. I enjoyed my own version of success over the years in the world of Christian ministry. Television shows. Christian conference speaker. Best-selling books. And very sincere about my faith in Jesus.

Yet there I was with them. Ugliness and all. 

Today, as I coach men out of this darkness, I’ve noticed the same trend. Very successful leaders. Very sincere Christians. And smart. So why are so many smart men making so many stupid choices? And here's another question... why is porn so prevalent among the pious? 

If we think porn is some foreign enemy that has never tiptoed it’s way into the church, think again.

Steve Farrar in his book Finishing Strong,” shared this story…

“A number of years ago a national conference for church youth directors was held at a major hotel in a city in the mid-west. Youth pastors by the hundreds flooded into that hotel and took nearly every room. At the conclusion of the conference, the hotel manager told the conference administrator that the number of guests who tuned into the adult movie channel broke the previous record, far and away outdoing any other convention in the history of the hotel.”

Huh? A group of youth pastors set the new record for porn movies in a hotel? 

A recent Christianity Today survey confirms this story:

  • 21% of Christian men say they think they might be “addicted” to pornography. (compared to 10% of non- Christian men). 
  • 54% of pastors said they had viewed Internet pornography within the last year, and 30% of these had visited within the last 30 days. 

I believe there are five reasons why there are so many smart, successful (and sincere) Christian men watching porn: 

1. The smart and successful ARE USED TO WINNING.

Porn and sexual vice is just another battle they can win alone, right? Wrong. 

When high achievers encounter problems, they always have a plan to overcome. They figure out a way to make the sale or find new customers or recruit a better employee. So when they finally find themselves being consumed with pornography and the collateral damage that comes with it, that “just win” reflex kicks in. They try to will their way to quitting. After all, it’s just images. "How could that be stronger than me?" 

But it has become more than images. It’s a deeply embedded, highly addictive, chemically induced playground that has taken years to build in your mind. And you aren’t going to take it down alone. 

That’s why the scripture says, 

“Therefore confess your sins to one another, and pray for one another, so that you may be healed. The prayer of the righteous is powerful and effective.” James 5:16 (NRSV)

Don’t believe the lie. You don’t beat this enemy by yourself. Find a trustworthy friend, pastor or counselor that you can share your story with and figure out a path of freedom.

2. Successful men are often too busy being successful to maintain intimacy in their marriage.

It’s not that successful don’t love their wives. It's just that high achievers can get so busy providing for their family that they no longer have time for them. Odd huh? That we work so hard for the very people we are losing in the process. Every man has a love and intimacy bucket. And if your bucket is not being filled at home, you will eventually find yourself trying to fill it in other places. 

If you’re too busy to enjoy regular romantic outings with your wife, you’re too busy. If you’re too busy for evenings relaxing together after work, you’re too busy. If you’re not having good sex on a consistent basis with your wife, you’re too busy. 

You never lose it all overnight. But you will lose it all over time, if you don’t make marital adjustments. 

3. Successful people tend to travel. 

High achievers are always going places. Conferences. Speaking events. Sales trips. Golf get-aways. You name it. Being away, especially when you are alone, offers anonymity, loneliness during downtime and a pandora's box of temptations. 

Whether it’s X-rated hotel movies, a woman at a bar or the strip club down the street, there is always something ready to take both your money and your soul. 

So here are my suggestions for safe travels. (besides wearing a seat belt in the rental car)

  • Avoid traveling alone whenever you can. 
  •  If you are alone, try to stay with a friend or colleague in the city you are going.
  • When away, over communicate with your spouse. Call and talk often.
  • Avoid downtime like the plague. 
  • If staying at a hotel, ask them to turn off the adult movie option. 
  • Take a book or a work project to give your time to in your spare moments.

4. Overwork, exhaustion and success are a dangerous cocktail for entitlement.

It’s the whole “Solomon principle.” 

“I denied myself nothing my eyes desired; I refused my heart no pleasure. My heart took delight in all my labor, and this was the reward for all my toil.” Ecclesiastes 2:10 NIV

Solomon was one of the most wealthy and successful men in the history of the world. Basically he was saying here, “Hey, I’ve worked extremely hard for what I’ve got and I’m going to enjoy the rewards of all the hours I’ve put in!”

Addicts thrive on entitlement. 

“I’ve been through a lot of crap.”

“I put in 80 hours last week.”

“My wife doesn’t meet my needs.”

Me. Me. Me.

Hey, I’m not saying you haven’t earned the right to enjoy the fruits of your success. You have. But you have not earned the right to be unfaithful. So how do we handle our sense of entitlement? 


Creating sabbath in our life does three important things for us:

  1. It gives us time rest and rejuvenate our life and bodies together.
  2. It sets time aside to give thanks to God for all good things.
  3. It calls us into a community of Jesus people that help care for our soul. 

And lastly... and this is extremely profound. Wait for it... 

4. We are men. 

I know, powerful right?

But hey, we are all men. And no man reading this is simpleminded enough to think the lure we feel towards the forbidden is only targeting the rich and famous. Sexual brokenness reaches across every economic, racial and religious demographic. 

Men were created to enjoy sex. To want sex. And sex is absolutely amazing. 

If you are waiting for the Christian caveat of “as long as it’s inside a marriage relationship,” keep waiting. Because you won’t find many guys who are engaging sexual vice outside of their marriage that say they hate it. 

But they will tell you they hate what it is doing to their soul. 

As a man who lived in the chains of sexual addiction for 25 years and saw everything he held dear taken away as a result, all I can tell you is this:

 Get the help you need NOW if you are struggling on any level.  

I am pleased to offer you three amazing opportunities to get on freedom’s road:

1. Subscribe to “The Final Week of my Life” Series



I will be chronicling the story of "The Final Week of my Life" in a series of seven emails during Passion Week leading up to Easter Sunday, April 16th. I will candidly rehearse the happenings of each day that put me in the grave, but more importantly, I will share the seven secrets that empowered me to resurrection.

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2. Live Free Men’s Freedom Experience



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I'm Going to let you in on a Little Secret


Ok. I’m going to let you in a little secret. 

I’ve written nearly 20 books. Sold around 300,000 of them over the years. And every book I’ve written to date has taken me little more than a month to write. 

The book I’m about to publish has taken 5 years. It’s the most important assignment that the Lord has ever given me. I believe it is going to help thousands of men break the power of lust and sexual bondage over their lives. 

The title of the book is “The 7 Dirty Little Secrets of Resurrection.” The subtitle describes the content perfectly, “My confession, my crash and my comeback from sexual addiction.”

We are publishing it ourselves because Christian publishers have said it’s too honest. They wanted to sanitize it. 

When the Spirit prompted me to share my story, I knew I had to do three things:

1. Be perfectly transparent about my journey. 

2. Help every reader discover why pornography and sexual sin is such a menacing enemy to the soul.

3. Share the seven secrets God gave me to rise out of the ashes of addiction, loss and devastation. 

I thought I would give you a sneak peak at what is coming.

Here is a brief segment from one of the early chapters:

“It was a beautiful spring day in Frisco, Texas, a bustling, from-the-box suburb north of Dallas. It was just warm enough to make life enjoyable, but without being overbearing or causing the day-long complaints that eventually come with the onset of summer. 

In the midst of this beauty, down amongst the exhaust fumes and newly laid concrete of Legacy Drive—essentially a six-lane highway and one of the busiest streets in Frisco—Curtis McKenzie was out for a stroll. He stumbled along in mud-caked jeans, shuffling in a mostly straight line straight down the center of Legacy, distractedly sparking a Bic lighter with one hand while cupping his other hand around the cigarette dangling loosely between his lips. 

He wanted one last smoke before God took him, but the damn thing wouldn’t light. 

Curtis took no notice of the abrasive honking, of the squealing rubber of suddenly averting tires as vehicles on this highly trafficked road swerved to avoid hitting him. He was too involved in that final cigarette to care about any of that. 

Too focused on the perfect mess he’d made of his life. 

Curtis wanted out of that mess, and just like the blindfolded prisoners in classic films are given one final smoke before they face the firing squad, he felt entitled to this conclusive Marlboro Light. 

Plus, if he was looking down at his lighter, he might not see the face of whatever unfortunate motorist wound up taking him out.

Just minutes before this ill-conceived stroll, Curtis had looked into his parents’ eyes and told them everything. It was the last of the face-to-face confessions he’d made that day, finally opening up and shocking his loved ones—his wife, his kids—with the truth about his double life.

His secret identity.
Curtis McKenzie was me.

Blaine Bartel—that’s my real name. Ask anyone who knew me then and they’d tell you I was a great guy. As far as they knew, anyway. Sure, I wasn’t perfect—didn’t have a perfect marriage or perfect kids—but everything was going great. My ministry was flourishing, my boys were well-adjusted, and though my wife and I had our problems, those problems didn’t look like anything out of the ordinary. Not even to her. 

No, Blaine Bartel was not a bad guy. He loved his wife and children. He was fiercely devoted to Christ and to God’s kingdom, relentlessly and fearlessly living out the divine assignments of his God-ordained purpose. He was the “man of God” in his family, the voice that trumpeted the Good News of the gospel around the world, both in pulpits and on airwaves. He was the author of books, the host of national television shows, the always-humble rock star who rubbed shoulders with some of the biggest names in the Christian entertainment complex. 

Curtis McKenzie? That guy loved only himself. His eyes were glassy, intoxicated with pleasure. His voice gave only throaty howls of entitlement. His imagination knew no depth to its depravity, and it was a wellspring of death, incessantly gurgling forth new ideas to torture Blaine with. His power over Blaine seemed overwhelming, powered by the lethal, cold-blooded killer known as the god of gratification. 

God had raised Blaine up. 
And Curtis was bringing him down.”

This short excerpt is just the beginning of what I believe will be one of the most heart-rending and inspiring books you’ve ever read.

While it begins with the tale of my slow descent into death, the fascinating power of the resurrection Jesus bestowed in my life will bring hope to every man that has ever struggled with their own inner demons and fear.

We are just weeks away from launching a Kickstarter Campaign to raise the money to publish this book. We are still researching the final budget for all the production, but I believe the costs will around $10,000.00. 

Here’s what I am humbly asking of you as a friend or colleague today. 

Just pray. 

Pray that the Lord will provide. Pray for the hearts of people will be touched to help us. We must get this out to the thousands (perhaps millions) of men who are trapped in this cycle of sin and pain... and feel beyond repair.

Thank you for praying and believing in us. 

Grace always,

Blaine Bartel
Comeback Coach. Resurrectionist. Jesus flag-waver. 

PS. This book will actually be a part of a compilation of resources, called “Chopping Wood.” It will include the book, a training video for men on sexual purity and audio coaching for spouses who are suffering through the pain of betrayal.